Last year father's day was a heartbreaking one for me. I remember we went to Tambun for seafood with my inlaws. I was about six months pregnant then. Carrying this huge tummy and having to drive all the way to Tambun just to celebrate Father's Day for my father in law. While I was sitting in the car awaiting for the family to come down. I couldn't help but broke into tears.
The cry became even worse when i saw my sister in law holding her father's hand walking towards the car. It just make me think of all the memories i have with my father. Seeing people who are so close to their father is just wonderful.
My relationship with my dad hasn't been that good all the while. Maybe its because of his hard working nature and also my rebellious attitude which got us emotionally disconnected. We can sit in the hall and watch the TV for hours with no conversation at all. I have no memories of ever being sinked in my fathers arms.
Our father and daughter relationship eventually got closer after he was found to have cancer. Regret being a rebellious daughter i stood by him through the whole process. Though it is only prostate but it hit him hard. Harder than anyone could imagine. The only memory i have, ever to hold my father's hand close to me was when i was begging him not to give up on himself.
Daddy Dearest
As tomorrow is Father's Day, I thought i will dig out some photo's taken of me and my father. To my surprise, I have only two.
My daddy once said to me, 'I have raised you up, and now you can take care of yourself. I have no worries.' 'My responsibility as a father is over.'
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